ON SURRENDER

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I recently had a moment where I started to feel a gap in between what I had and what I wanted. I wanted to get creative and make something with a bigger impact. I wanted to be more of a connector between people. I wanted to do well at work and see a movement grow. I wanted to do well at home and catalyze a happy family.

I said a prayer that seemed to make sense. “Whatever you’ve given me, I will grow.”

What I heard back was something more along the lines of– hold up, reverse that.

I had the right idea, but the wrong roles in mind. Remembering whose hands are more capable, more in control, was a rush of freedom. “What you give to me, I will grow,” God reminded me, removed all the burdens of effort and returned all the joy of doing.

Philippe Lazaroideal, ideal1